It would be amiss to underrate the exciting power of human brain. Human life form has taken its shape by an extreme development and struggle through the moulds of nature’s harsh reality. With this ultimate product called “brain” comes an ever widened concept of life and reality! (For the functioning of human form is determined at the discretion of neuron impulses, has become a popular and widely accepted idea). Evidently the argument is tautological and is baffling in terms of defining the actual cause of events, namely, brain or nature- what comes first? Even if we are able to resolve on this issue, can we ever settle down on the deterministic behaviour of mind or brain? I suppose extracting complete answers to these questions is nearly impossible and one needs to look at them from a different as well as wider perspective.
Apart from this, I think I have grown into an individual who considers intellect and knowledge to be of paramount importance. My mind has started functioning in a way which caters for most, if not all, possibilities of reason and inquisition. I learnt to think deeply of simple things. But once again, I am thrown on the horns of dilemma when I try knowing what shaped or made me into an individual of such outlook on life. How far did I control the events that happened for me? This brings in the usual and clichéd words of ‘fate’ and ‘predestination’. World has perhaps been engulfed in this debate for ages now, but with still no final answers. The acceptance of such sensitive issues has only been determined by the preordained inclination of individuals towards a set of ideas. So once again the circle completes its turn and lands us into in a similar problem. Maybe there are no clear cut answers to such problems, we need to think and learn about matters differently.
On a more informed level, I try finding meaning to things which happen to me. To me kindness and good being are the traits fundamentally and conscientiously present in the universe, and digression from them seems to me strange and sad in all respects. I have known many instances in which I feel to be treated unjustly and the matters get worse when such injustice takes a toll on my academic well being - I do remember the day in my mathematics class (O’ Level) when we were taught about regular polygons and the sum of their external angles to be 360 degrees. All I made was a shape that resembled more of a red cross. It looked perfectly ‘regular’ to me and, with straight sides it was a ‘polygon’ to me too. On calculation I was able to calculate a sum that went over a staggering 2520 degrees. On questioning I was scolded and embarrassingly made to stay quiet. Similar cases have occurred in physics where ‘gravity’ and ‘relativity’ were not explained the way they should have been. Such events did bother me to frustrating levels and made me question myself the meaning of such unfortunate events. Similarly I was bent to think about others too! Why has life been so ruthless to those dying in earthquakes (one of them hitting
I am amused each time I struggle through and try to find the meaning of life. With so many intellectual, social and ethical dilemmas, I am convinced nature cannot be so cruel to leave us totally blank and unattended. I have actually found the meaning of life in its very diversity. Life is all about moving on and discovering new things where perhaps nothing is good or bad, appeasing or annoying. I suppose Buddha was divine in describing himself to be awake when he was questioned about the meaning of his life. All I have tried to do is remain awake and appreciate that life is so full of life!